Good things first: read the John Adams bio, which was AWESOME. If you haven’t and you enjoy history, revolution and a love story for the ages, this could be a book for you. Have been especially fertile with writing too. Listening to mush music, spending time with friends. BUT works been difficult. I am going to break a rule I had formed in my head and talk about work on a blog. But I need to speak.
In general, I have enjoyed working where I work. I have pretty nice, quirky co-workers, have a varied week b/c my projects change every week (one of the best parts of being a project manager), and my schedule is 8:30-4:30. All v.good things I appreciate. However, the work load has been outrageous, I am now at the level where ‘no errors will be tolerated.’ To say I am stressed is an understatement. I had a moment where I cried in the bathroom. It felt criminally GOOD to cry- the release was splendid. But this leaves me to ponder. . .what shall I do with myself? Is this where I want to be? What DO I want to do with my life? I don’t know the answers to these questions but I want to start thinking about the possible answers. For three years, I have been trying to be practical, methodical and efficient. I am all of those things but I am also denying what I call ‘weekend’ self. Yet I Don’t want to make any hasty decisions based on the anger I sometimes feel with the job.
Tomorrow is Leap Day. Exciting. In honor, I cut my hair a tad shorter and in a slightly funkier way. Hair makes a huge difference, my peeps. Go Hair!
